Meds free and I’m totally fine

Hi there, long time no read?

The last post I wrote was about the weaning off of my anxiety Medication. I‘ve actually been off of them for a few weeks now and I must say mentally, I feel in control.

Alas, with every positive you have to throw a negative in there, you know, to balance it out. I wouldn’t say I’m suffering from insomnia but I will say trying to relax enough to fall asleep is clearly a struggle.

Right now, as we speak, I’m exhausted. I’m totally ready for bed but I cannot shut off. I do eventually fall asleep but it’s not easy.

On the other hand, I will say that I’m extremely proud of myself for what I’ve come through. I am managing my stress levels very well (if I do say so myself) but (there is always a but) my body is still reacting subconsciously to the stress and I think it always will.

What I mean by this is basically I get hot, flustered and without being aware I get red rashes all over my my neck. If you are lucky enough to see me in public you will probably notice the rashes (but I won’t unless you tell me).

This physical reaction to stress and anxieties has taken place for as long as I can remember. I wonder if any of you suffer from it to? Or am I just special...

In conclusion, anxiety sucks, but can be overcome and I get red rashes when I’m stressed. I think those are the two points you can take from this post. First one, actually useful and important. Second one, not so important but relevant all the same.

I don’t really have much inspiration right now to write anything. I’m not even sure that’s the right word. I literally write posts about my impulsive thoughts.

Content will arrive at some point, don’t you worry guys...

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